Over the course of the last few days I have noticed that I usually like to be doing some activity constantly. For example, when I watch tv, I really hate just sitting there for hours on end. I enjoy watching tv (or movies) most when I combine that time with another activity. Usually my multitasking involves knitting, crocheting, or some form of artwork. This past Sunday I managed to injure the index finger on my right hand while playing frisbee at the Labor Day Picnic. I'll put it this way, I am not left handed. Now, thankfully my finger wasn't broken or dislocated (my mom and I were actually thinking I could have fractured it). I jammed it pretty thoroughly, however. So my finger has been quite swollen and painful for the last few days (in fact it still is) not to mention I have had it in a splint to reduce my range of movement.
Yesterday I actually got really short tempered with my family because I was unable to draw! My inability to play World of Warcraft may have contributed to that as well. :) My unhappiness really made me think about the activities that are important to me. It is interesting to see how dependent I am on self expression, but at the same time it was a relief to discover. Lately I've been thinking about a couple different decisions and events that are coming up in my life.
I'm a senior in high school this year, so in a few short months I will be graduating and moving on to a new chapter in my life: college. I would really love to go to art school, but the reality of the business world is that the term "starving artist" is no joke. I want to do something I love, but I also want to be able to support myself properly. So I'm conflicted about what I should do with that decision. Also, the new youth group worship team that I have been a part of for many months is going to be undergoing some changes soon. Christian (the youth pastor and worship leader) is hoping to have at least a portion of the team ready to be on stage within the next few months. The problem is that there are about 7 people all on this team as vocalists, and only one of us can harmonize. This means that soon we will have to have the dreaded "talk" to see who stays and who goes. Scary!
So I guess I really need some peace and clarity to be able to sit down and work through some things in my life right now. And it is such a relief to have a bit of my turmoil recorded somewhere. I believe there is something theuraputic in writing (or typing) out feelings and problems. My apologies for this monster of a post. I hope I didn't put anyone to sleep, and I promise I will try to rein in the post monster in the days to come.
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